Having two children is just crazy for me sometimes. I think of women like Michelle Duggar (from TLC's show 19 and Counting) and often loudly say to myself, "I don't know how the woman does it!!!"
When we had our first son it was work, but everything was new. It was also just "caring" for him for the first year of his life.
Since he passed a year old and is now very strongly into being a typical (and often times stubborn) two-year old, the "caring" for him has turned into "parenting". Yes, I say that with quotations because I am frequently questioning my parenting skills, often several times a day.
I was a nanny for many, many years before I had my own children. It seemed so much easier to care for other people's children. I had no problems with boundaries, playing with them, and guiding them into good choices. Now that I'm a parent, I often question whether or not what I'm doing is actually the right thing. This probably has more to do with my lack of a solid night's sleep in about four years if you count pregnancy sleep too.
When we had our second child, a girl, five months ago, our world was pretty much rattled as much as it ever has been before.
I look at my house sometimes and think, "If someone had taken a picture of how messy this place is and said, 'Yep, you'll be living in the midst of this someday' I would have first cried, and then told them that I didn't believe them."
Most of these entries will be about the craziness, because our life is SO crazy right now. But it's a good life, a blessed life, and this is just where I've decided to start...
